3rd May 2014: I had conducted my 1st
pregnancy test at my then home, in Bangalore. Result was indistinct; it was a
30/70. Being aware of all the complications related to my pregnancy, I was
pretty confident on the negative result. The next test was planned post my Bday on 11th
May, but some uncanny symptoms my body was giving me. I always have a very
strong sense of smell, but in that one week it had reached to the level of hyperosmia.
I started getting tired very easily, tired to the point of panting like a dog! So,
got my next test done on 09th and yes! It was positive. At 4:00 am in
morning, I did the test. That moment was like getting fresh air after being
stuck in the lift for an hour. That moment was like seeing the sea from a
ferris wheel.
I guess the bliss of giving birth to a child, is so very
immense because the risks and pain surrounding those 9 months are equally elevated.
Husbands take time to grasp all major developments in his
woman’s life. I had this notion that only my man is like that, but gradually I have
come to realize that if some man is not like that, then he is the exceptional
one! We were at the clinic for my first USG, and this man was behaving as if it
was his 12th visit with a pregnant lady. Though I was decided that I
will not take him with me to the doctor’s cabin, I didn’t want create a scene
out there. So, he went with me and the test started. The doctor was using a
headphone. After a while he took off the headphone and increased the volume of
the system from where a mystic sound was coming. It sounded like some printing
machine in action. The doctor gave us a quizzical look and he got back some
puzzled glares. For the first time since 04th May 201, Annoy
suddenly beamed up and exclaimed, “Neha, it’s a life within you” and I realized
that the sound was not caused by any malfunction in the system, but it my
baby’s heartbeat; our baby’s heartbeat.
Ugh! The Mood Swings: During that phase, there had been days
when I used to abhor the presence of Annoy around me, again there were days
when I used to be furious with him because I assumed him to be non-responsive
to my overwhelming love for him. There also used to be days when he I used to love
him more for every small act of his.
Thanks to movies, I had a myth that pregnancy would make me
the queen of the world. But when nothing of that sort happened and I was treated
as a postman, carrying a valuable parcel; tears knew no boundaries.
The days when I was supposed to be the happiest and
optimistic, I spent them crying. Out of the very rare moments of happiness were
the few when I could feel the little life moving within me (no not the kicks,
because those used to send me on a fit).
Besides the baby, I also had a 10cm fibroid fitted in my tummy, so the
moments of joy often used turn into panic attacks.
Then there was this role reversal of my taste buds. Never in
the wildest of my dreams had I ever thought that I will ever love sweets and
fishes and loathe mutton. But that I did! My fridge always had a good stock of
“narkel-naru” if not any other sweet. No lunch passed by without fish. Chicken
and mutton was stopped being cooked in my house as I couldn’t bear the smell.
Actually, I should have taken the hunch then itself, when this little being had
started playing his tricks with me even before moving out of my body.
That was the only time when I had ever gone to any
restaurant and had only vegetarian food: such a doubtful memory it would seem
to me myself, a few years from now.
The last dinner, 2 weeks prior to my delivery was at Global
Grill Sigree. By then I could once again resist the smell of non-vegetarian
food. However, such a waste of a buffet we did. I could hardly eat anything.
Forget about eating, I had practically sent most of the staff on a trip with my
presence. But, I must agree the staff was very cordial and helpful. I had no
intention of disturbing the ambiance of nice restaurant but this was our
version of the Babymoon about which I had read so much in babycenter.Though we did want
to go on some weekend trip but I was too sure about my mood swings and we had
landed up in 2some dinner. Our babymoon happened on 14th December
2014, at Apollo Hospital (complete name). Bags packed, the 2some left only to
return being a 3some.
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