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3 rd May 2014: I had conducted my 1 st pregnancy test at my then home, in Bangalore. Result was indistinct; it was a 30/70. Being aware of all the complications related to my pregnancy, I was pretty confident on the negative result.  The next test was planned post my Bday on 11 th May, but some uncanny symptoms my body was giving me. I always have a very strong sense of smell, but in that one week it had reached to the level of hyperosmia. I started getting tired very easily, tired to the point of panting like a dog! So, got my next test done on 09 th and yes! It was positive. At 4:00 am in morning, I did the test. That moment was like getting fresh air after being stuck in the lift for an hour. That moment was like seeing the sea from a ferris wheel. I guess the bliss of giving birth to a child, is so very immense because the risks and pain surrounding those 9 months are equally elevated. Husbands take time to grasp all major developments in his woman’s life. I had this ...

Prothom bochor theke niye aj obdi onek kichui bodle geche, koto notun mukh eseche, koto keo chole geche ei jaigatake chere, kintu ami jeno hazar cheyeo nijeke bodlate parini! Aj eto gulo bochor poreo ami matro hate gona koti manushke chini, eto bochor poreo ami ekhankar hoye jete parini! Naam na jeneo eder sobaike ami prochondo bhalobesechi. Eder moto hote na pereo dure theke eder ronge nijeke rangiye tulechi…dosh amar ektai, eder konodin bolte parini era amar kotto priyo!! North Brooker ek ekti manushke ami prochondo shrodha kori, bhalo basi… Amar jonyo North Brook mane Durga Puja, North Brook mane fotka, North Brook mane amar bari…north brook mane chttobelar sei bondhu…koto smriti joriye ache ei jaigatar sathey, tobu je keno ami jaigatar hoye jete parini, jani na…!! Aj Dadosi, pujo sesh…raatre bhasan hobe r tarpor abar je jar nijer kaje fire jabo. Agey bhasaner somoi prochur nachtam, ektuo hafatamna, thokeo jetamna!! Haat-pa chure dhakler tale taal melatam! Prothom jedin Nort...

A year passed by without a single write up…surprising….how limited  my thoughts have become…it seems to have lost its wings… but some thousand elephants are on a  stampede in stomach, butterflies are flying around everywhere in my head…and why not? I am all set to have the “ Delhi ki laddu”. The countdown has begun… just 58 more days left & my status would change from single to married. Finally, I would be stepping into a new life& am I happy? I don’t know…there’s so much of apprehension that there’s no space for pure childlike happiness.  Today’s weather is lovely…it’s perfect for sitting on the portico with a steaming hot cup of coffee. Unlike my mind, the sky is clear & like a baby the stars are smiling down on us. My friends from Durgapur , staying far away from their homeland are truly missing out the perfect welcome to the year 2012, given by nature. It’s great realization that every morning when I would wake up I would find my love cuddled beside me...